Question:
LONG question. My dad's cheating on my mom... I feel like I'm mourning a death...?
Lovely Rita, Meter Maid
2008-10-17 18:42:26 UTC
I am a 21 year old student, living at home. Yesterday, my sister and I heard "$ht hit the fan"... my dad left his e-mail open on accident, and my mom read about his sordid affair with some ^**(&^*&%** blonde bimbo.. I guess they didn't realize we could hear, but my sister (9 years younger than me) told me something was going on... She heard far worse than I overheard, coming to hear the conversation later than she did... She even heard my mom say that she read about how he prefers completely shaved vaginas (NO JOKE, god bless my sister... poor kid).
At first... I just thought "jeez this sucks". But an hour later I couldn't stop crying (i'm tearing up now), I felt like i was mourning... that someone I loved dearly had died. I didn't sleep til 6 a.m. and woke up around 9:15 a.m. It seems that now my parents are pretending nothing happened. I suppose that's better than the alternative of them blowing up in every way, but... WHERE IS MY MOTHER'S SELF RESPECT??? HOW CAN MY DAD DO THAT??? THEY'VE BEEN MARRIED 28 YEARS, FOR GOD'S SAKE.
As long as I don't think about it at all, I'm "okay". The minute I let myself, I can't stop crying. I don't even know what I'm asking...
I just... I didn't think anything less than a death or being dumped by a true love or ??????? could ever make me feel like this.
Seven answers:
NMMR
2008-10-17 20:54:14 UTC
Wow, this opened the door to my old memories. I know you are feeling pretty bad right now. In my case, I was 13 when my father decided to leave the house to live with another woman on December 8, 1994. What a date, huh? Just around Christmas, my birthday on the 24th, and leaving my mom with my 14 year old brother, 6 year old sister, 2 year brother and 2 days short of my baby bro reaching being a 6 month old and his first Christmas. Prior to that my parents where always fighting about him cheating, "working" late, etc., although he always denied it.



As you can read, it was true, and let me tell you it was HARD for all of us.



For my mom, I can't even describe her pain caused by the man she faithfully believed (she grew up strictly catholic) was marrying in the eyes of God for the rest of her life. The man she married and for whom she did not study medicine after getting an undergraduate degree, for a pact that involved her working to pay for the family to survive while he was the one who studied medicine. The one for whom she worked he *** off and helped build an extremely successful medical center from scratch. She started with him when he literally didn't have anything, and after 15 years of marriage, and after helping him reach success, he not only left her with 5 kids, but he also wanted her out of managing the medical center which she had developed with him. She felt and was betrayed on so many levels, either personally or professionally.



In my case, it was hard for me. I won't deny that some part of me was happy that he left because I thought their fighting will stop and thought that things will get better (childish wishful thinking). On the other hand, the situation led me to grow very fast. Suddenly I was having the responsibility of trying to keep my deeply depressed mom together, and trying to take care of my siblings. Let me tell you, my mom is an extremely strong person in general, but like a hard wooded tree in a hurricane she just fell down, instead of being resilient to the winds. Yes, she cooked food, and took us to school every day, but other than feeding and school, she just kept to herself inside her room. To this day, ~14 years later, she is ok but still feels rancor towards my dad, the woman, and his family, because while my mom cried every day to my grandmother, behind her back they knew about the other woman and even opened their doors to her for visits. They later accepted it when my mother found out and said they didn't want to, but what could they do.



So yes, I was totally devastated and cried my eyes out, but had to kept it together for my family. This has been a good and a bad thing. Good because I helped them grew into what they are today and my siblings kinda think of me as their second mom hybrid sister. Bad, because I grew too fast, and although I am doing my graduate studies and have led with my life (romantically and otherwise), I still feel a lot of responsibility towards them like a parent instead of a sibling (who else would go to every sports competition they participate with my mom to support them or drive them to their rock band practice, or drive them to the mall or movie theater when they want to go out with friends etc. lol). I guess a good outcome of that bad situation, is that now we are all very tight with each other, we value each other, and we take time at least one day a week to go out together, eat, shop, or just being together (mom + siblings). This make us stronger as a family.



I know this has been a long statement, and I am sorry. As I told you at the beginning, your situation brought back old memories. In a way I am explaining my situation to let you know that you are not alone in your pain, and at the same time it has been kind of a therapy for me :-). Yes, it still makes me sad if i think of it, but you can be sure that time will let you feel it less painfully.



My only advice is to be there for your mom and sister. Your sister needs you right now, especially starting an already difficult stage (teenage years), where anger and sadness, believes of unworthiness and instability, can lead to doing stuff that you may not wish her to do.



In the case of your mom, its hard, because if someone stays with the cheater is because: 1) she is ok with him doing it (wish I doubt if she screamed at him); 2) she wishes that it didn't happen and its trying to think that all is just a "bad dream" (wish is possible, because no one, especially someone married for 28 years, wants to think her life is not what she thought or planned to be); OR 3) she is just acting like that because she thinks that both of you still don't know and don't want to hurt you and its possible that she may or may not be planning to leave him until getting more legal or counseling/therapy advice. So talk to her, let her know that both of you are aware of the situation and ask her how does she feel and what she is thinking.



About self-respect, yes is important but for some
2008-10-17 19:03:08 UTC
We are all sorry to hear this. Yes, basically something did die- your structure and all that you thought was good and stable.



The first thing you need to do is to not criticize your parents. Your mom's self respect has nothing to do with it right now cuz she may not be that far yet. She might still be in shock and not know how to handle it so she/they are blowing it off till they can think straight.



Your dad was wrong to do that, plain and simple. What I mean by not criticizing them is that they need to work out whatever they need to do between themselves. I am not trying to say that you and your sisters are not important to them. You are. Let them come to you afterwards, or suggest a family meeting at some time in the future so that you all can talk about it when THEY are ready. All you can do is offer support, but don't be disappointed if they don't ask your opinion right away. When that type of situation happens in a marriage there is something gravely wrong, and it could have been festering for years.



To me the best things you can do is to not hold it inside; cry it out or it will hurt you physically too. Talk to the younger kids and ask them how they feel and try to help them cope. It will help your parents' situation if they know that you are somewhat ok. Find someone you trust that you can talk to outside the family like at Church. No one outside the family other than a priest needs to know your family business; it will just make things worse.
Ravensgirl
2008-10-17 19:10:28 UTC
You may need to be the adult in this situation. If the elephant in the room is not faced head on then it may run rampant through the house. My advice to you is to confront your parents and let them know that you and your younger sister over heard their conversation and you want some answers. It will be hard on both you and your parents but if they know that you and most especially your younger sister knows then maybe things can be discussed and this marriage saved or at least your parents will then have a chance to heal.



My father had cheated on my mother from before I was born. All my life my mother told me the story of finding my father with his mistress on July 4, 1970. Not even 2 months after I was born.



I hope you can eventually forgive your father, he is human and we all make mistakes. You don't have to like your dad but you should always love him.



Love is a choice that is sometimes hard to make.
Bonnie S
2008-10-17 18:50:00 UTC
my dad did the same thing. except i saw his email out a few months be4 he was " found out." He moved out a few months aftr. ur handling it bettr than i did. I got kinda depressed and hate him. still do, but I cant change who he is and u cnt change who ur father is either. I havnt talkd 2 him in a year and i am happy w my life now. If u still like ur dad, u can go and visit him if u want. Talk 2 ur sis bout it bc she prob. doesnt now how 2 handle it either,
Roberto D
2008-10-17 19:09:45 UTC
wow...yes..it is hard...and it happens...life happens..and divorces in life happen..other times when they should divorce ..they don't...and sometimes when is a little small detail..one party overblows it..and then ..

when you think it should not..divorce happens....and I understand your crying about you mourning somebody..."that somebody is/was the "family" ambiance ..relationship that once existed at your house...and now..you know ..is there no more...for "it died"..it vanished ...it went away ..the moment your dad got involved with other female...(that is something that no body can control..not you ..not your mom..nobody.....it killed that "family" togetherness....and now...what was once.." a big ship"....is now become ..4 people on separate pieces

of board..like from when a ship wreck....good luck.
bratpackfan
2008-10-17 19:07:48 UTC
I would first talk to my mom. You may think she's acting like nothing's happened, but she's probably devastated. And they aren't supposed to be discussing it in front of you guys anyway. But let her know what you heard and how you're feeling.



Then I'd talk to my dad. I would have to let him know that I knew, and how it made me feel.
Ariel g
2008-10-17 18:47:45 UTC
damn him and his ways us men are like that but dont get men wrong some are nice some are bad you just have to look out for the good ones. in the future who you want to be with check if he will stay with you. like im a man but damn i wouldent do that.


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