how can i live life in the little time i have left?

Question

i am a 19 year old girl and i have been struggling with pancreatic cancer for the last year. i was initially given 8 months to live by the doctor but i am still alive. it is a terrible feeling when you know what your destiny is and the uncertainty of how much time i have left. the funny thing is, just before i was diagnosed with cancer was the time when i was really happy. as a child i had always been bullied and troubled by other children because i was extremely shy and awkward. my parents had a divorce when i was just 8 and it left an emotional scar in me. i had no friends and i truly wished to die......the irony is that just a few months before i turned 17, i met the love of my life. i was so happy and for the first time in my life , i felt secure and in love.......i planned on marriage and having children of my own.... i didn't know i would be diagnosed with cancer just a few months later.....i feel life has played a real cruel trick on me and my first chance of happiness is taken away from me forever ..... i cant help but fall into depression.... i cant stop crying,....i know i should face the situation and accept my fate but its so hard!!.....i'm sorry this is so long...but i really needed to vent my feelings....i want to be happy and spend this time that i have with the man i love, but whenever i see him, i get reminded of the family i never had as a child and the dream i had to have one of my own someday

Answer 1

My prayers are with you. I caant say I know what you are going through. Neither mentally or physically. You can't help wondering if this young man who you met and quickly fell in love with, was your destiny. You are with this Guy who knows about your illness. He didn't leave you. He wasn't scared off. He needs your love as much as you need his. Does hheading also want kids? How many? Hhave You ever heard of storing/ freezing a woman's .eggs? Why not freeze yours? Most people have time on their side. Sadly it is a fact you haven't. Why not get married sand spend the time You do have getting to know one another. What your childhood was like, favorite subject, favorite foods, basically everything about each other. What your beliefs and wishes about raising a girl or boy. Stress is a know source that can shorten your life. Why not really really get to know one another intimately. Go on a extreme healthy diet. Remove al the toxins in your body. Excercise is something that should never exhaust You. But your mind is another thing. Spiritualy you can medate. Do yoga. Two people can get really close just lying together, just doiing breathing techniques. Remember soft music and dimming lights is relaxing. If you really love him. Obviously you do. Enjoy the time you have together. Sad Tuesday its sad that you face this disease,especially so young. But wouldn't it be a little bbetter in knowing that ion away your hopes,dreams and wishes will be carried out. That this wonderful Guy will know that when you do die. That he has had the greatest kind of love to have. And he'll know that its okay to be loved and able to leave his heart open if love crosses his path after your gone. Then use your eggs to fulfill both your dreams. That is pretty. Awesome if there is a woman with so much love understanding and acceptance to have your baby.. Amen

Answer 2

If it is of any comfort... I believe that every person is on this earth to serve as a reason and live a footprint behind. When God decides that ur life is over he has the right to take u... But don't cry about death, live ur life well n serve those in needs, n uve got urself a free ticket to heaven guaranteed. Life is a test basically..some have a short and some have a long test, ur death was written when U were born. Whether u sit around and feel depressed about a test or u live up the rest of ur natural life well is up to u.. But life it a test to see how well u can cope, n the reward... Heaven...n heaven is were u will live FOREVER..

I pray that God is with u and comforts u through this troubled time..I pray u feel no regret or anger and that u embrace what's happened and make the most of what's left ^_^

Answer 3

People may give you so many answers to this question- but the only REAL happiness I've ever seen on someone's face, is when they are living life with Jesus Christ. It may seem hard to believe, and it may seem like a myth, fantasy... But it's real, and I know the joy of living with Him. He knows exactly what you are going through, and there is a possibility that He can heal you! But even if He doesn't, He waits for His child- that's you- in heaven where you will be happier than you could ever be on this twisted, pain-filled world. You might just want to take a chance with Jesus, there is nothing of importance that you can loose by following Him. He can make your joy complete- I pray you will be able to find Him. Hang in there! He loves you more than you can ever imagine- He works out EVERYTHING for the good of those who love Him, and there's always a reason behind everything He does.

Answer 4

I am sorry to learn about your illness. Every person has to die one day but usually others do not know as to when they will die. You should try to lead whatever time you have left happily with your family.

Answer 5

cinematic, still the reality!!



spend good time friends and family, atleast you know that you dont need anything in future!!



happy living!!