I have so much going on in my life. Help please.?

Question

So, i have had so much going on in my life these last few months. Depression, Pain, Anxiety, Etc. Im 12, and my life is falling apart. Sometimes when i see a balcony, i think, "If I just jump itd be over. No more pain." Being depressed, i like to find quotes that relate to me. I found a bunch of quotes about hiding depression, and my IDIOT stepdad invaded my privacy and secretly went through my phone. Quick note. Ive had 3 stepdads. But this one is the worst. He then texted my mom saying all this crap about my dad including "We shouldnt let him see her again till he becomes an actual dad" FROM MY PHONE. My dad is amazing. He then called me suicidal, and i got into a massive fight with him. My mom was aware, and they are getting a divorce. When i heard about it, i was SO happy. But then my mom started talking to this other guy who is like 10 years older than her and i hate him. I already know i do. And i just know theyll get married. They already go out, and other "Stuff" His youngest is 15. He has 3 kids. A son who is 17, a daughter who is 16, and another daughter who is 15. I hate it. I hate growing up like this. I hate it so much. My dad has MS so legally he isnt in good enough condition to take care of me. Or else id live with him. I love my mom but she NEVER makes time for me. When i turned 10 her and my stepdad left me on my birthday to go eat. Yea. They left me with my alcoholic aunt. How sweet. I have 3 siblings and i always get blamed for them. Im so unstable.

Answer 1

Well I can tell you are a smart young woman. Also you are sensitive to everyone and some of that is your hormones turning on at that age and they make you sensitive and moody, so that is just like what all 12 yr olds go through. Don't blame yourself for that honey, you will get past this hormonal time. I think your just wonderful thinking of your dad like you do! not forgetting him or hiding from him. Your wise beyond your years and have a loving heart. All these are wonderful qualities. I want you to join a youth group at your church or go with friends to theirs. Its a place to have fun and they talk about family stuff. I will be praying for you and your family. Even if your mom is not perfect sweet heart, let her do her thing and try to listen to music and read books that uplift you. Pray each day and evening for Jesus peace in your family. I will remember you too such a sweet heart you are!

Answer 2

You've had a dad and three stepdads, and your mom has already left the latest and is moving on to the next guy. And you're suicidal. OK, wow, that's a lot.



So, I'm thinking that your mom has got something going on mentally that is causing her to be unstable and to move from man to man. How long does she last with any one of them? Three years maybe? I'm wondering if she's bipolar. Look it up and see if it fits.



Here's the bad part... you might be feeling unstable because it's in your genes. You can fight that, but it will be tough. You need to get evaluated by a doctor. If your mother won't take you, find a way to get to a doctor by yourself. Call a hotline, call the doctor, do what you have to do.



If you do have something, there are meds and therapy. And watching your mother, you can know what to look out for.



Maybe I'm wrong. But it's worth seeing a doctor to figure it out.



Watch the videos at www.itgetsbetter.org to see if someone's situation inspires you. And make plans to get out by moving out, going to college, living with someone else, anything but suicide. That doesn't fix anything.

Answer 3

You need to find friends to be with to make you happy.

Answer 4

you could still live with your dad, it might help him for you to be there to help him out