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2013-01-06 05:29:23 UTC
I have 3 older sisters..i'm 19, they're 21, 25 & 26. And all of my sister are really stunning. It's not that I'm ugly, I'm just average whereas there beautiful. It sucks because my whole life I've always had people comment on how gorgeous my sisters are (no ones ever said that about me) or had them say 'That's your sister?' when they meet one, like they're shocked I could be related to someone that beautiful. Even my best friend thinks I'm the ugly sister, she always jokes about how I missed out on the good genes, and when we got drunk once I asked her if she though I was the ugly sister, and she pretty much confirmed she does.
I just get really insecure about it, because my whole life I've known that when people look at me that's what they think, that i'm the ugly one. And it sucks because I love going out with my sisters, but I always feel really insecure around them. We go clubbing sometimes, and all the boys love them but they don't even glance at me when I'm with them. They all get asked to dance and I'm just left sitting there and I hate it! And to make matters worse, they all have amazing personalities too! They all have this bubbly, fun loving streak but I come across as sarcastic, opinionated and stubborn.
Anway, I guess I'm just asking how I can become more confident in regards to my sisters. I'm actually very confident with my friends, but when I go out with my sisters I become really insecure. It just brings back the years that I always compared to them and I felt like I was always standing in their shadows, because I could never be as beautiful or talented as them. But I really want to get over it now, because I want to enjoy going out with them instead of feeling depressed all the time.
Any advice is appreciated!
Thank you :)